Midnight Hour

Midnight Hour
By: James Dubeau

Staring into the darkness
I can’t tell
If my eyes are open
Or closed
If I am alive
Or dead
Rain rattles against the window
Closing me in
Cutting off the rest of the world
Wetness wells in my eyes
My body trembles
I don’t want to be alone
Not right now
Not on these dark days

You Never Know

You Never Know
By: James Dubeau

You never know
What this world
Has in store
From one day
To the next

This day started
Just like any other
Minor aches and pains
Bitching about work
One job
Then the next

But yet
When the day was almost over
It all no longer mattered
For all of life
And all the realities
Came striking down
When I got the call
From my good friend
That my good friend
His wife
Was dead

Late Afternoon Coffee

Late Afternoon Coffee
By: James Dubeau

Coffee coffee
Burning bright
Oh hot beverage
Which I delight
But when it becomes
Time to sleep
Please leave my system
Before I weep
When the sun rises high
In the sky
And I shuffle off to work
Feeling that I would die

Autumn Rises

Autumn Rises
By: James Dubeau

Time for warm blankets
And snuggling with loved ones
From now until spring

Pathetic Existence

Pathetic Existence
By: James Dubeau

What a pathetic little existence
We all have
Trying to get from point A
To point B
In our meaningless insignificant lives
As I lie here
Fighting back the pain
And coughs
Endured by this dreaded illness
Of mine
It will be my curse until the end of time
My closed eyes
Listen to the world’s soul
Feeling
Rhythmic buzzing of a heartbeat
God’s beat
Measuring out what is to come
Pain and joy
And all that which the future holds
Overhead
Beyond the reach of fingertips
Bloodied
Trying to grasp razor sharp tendrils
To have
And hold tight against my flesh
Being one
With all that surrounds and binds us
But failing
Returning to that meaningless existence
Alone